stress

frankly speaking i start to get tired of my school life lex... waking up early dragging my feet to sch and wen sch ends no where to go... all my closest fren r nt wif me... i oso dun feel lik bothering them as they hav their exams to study n own problens to fan nao... in sch i tink tat im nt very close to any1 as in we will nt meet out after sch or during wkends... frens r tat little for me in poly ... my fren saes tat its difficult to find a close fren in poly bt i think tat they r doing fine onli me... i hav no motivation to go to sch... staying quiet is wat i can do in class onli bcums noisy wen im wif joelin lixian or funan they all... i oso wanna talk freely wif them bt i tink tat i still cannt treat them lik hw i treat my jie meis... owas loking forward to e wkends or holiday... although wrking is very tiring 4 me ppl may chose to go shopping or clubbing... its nt tat i hav no life bt i tink tat i rather go wrk n ply ard n crap wif my colleagues than gg out wif sch mates bt cannt b myself... at least im more natural during wrk... during holiday i can be wif my jiemeis i dun mind gg to their sch to lok for them during sch days bt fear tat i may stop them frm interacting wif their frens... or affect their studies... really hope tat changing e semester will change my attitude towards gg sch... or else i will b a walking mummy lex...